then, after my blog is done being archived, i’m pretty sure that i’m just going to pull my “transition” now, i really do have other stuff to do. i’ll still post, it just won’t be my own thoughts so heavily invested into what was previously serving as a “therapist” lol
all the more time to stop and buy a doughnut or something before i get to work
my cat and a subconscious “feeling”/internal alarm clock that told me to “wake up” are responsible for my now being ready for work, in some sort of record time, on a saturday morning
i’m going to take a nap now and hopefully, i’ll wake up in about an hour or so although, if i really want to, i can now sleep through my blaring “siren” alarm clock on its loudest setting so i don’t really know how this will turn out
it’s impossible to “keep up” with the entirety of the internet, very much like the task of trying to “keep up” with the entirety of the “real world” – you can’t really do that, at least without the aid of something along the lines of time travel, and, even if you had some sort of hope that you could, you’d go insane first lol you’ll just have to settle for reading the news, etc, and hope that fills the “void” that might come from not being able to obtain a truer or truest understanding of the world (and even that could drive you insane), although, if we were to get slightly “philosophical”, we might say that “a better and truer understanding of the world starts with a better and truer understanding of yourself”
i really got quite “obscure” with my horror movies and my anime a long time ago, honestly – and what’s great about a place like youtube and a preexisting, more conventional “movie industry” in the past, is that there is a wealth of movies to watch, from a time when maybe both the horror and anime industries had seen slightly “better days” (especially during the VHS boom) – it’s not that i don’t have any hope at all for the future, it’s just that, as a truly “modern” individual, “raised” on the internet, i don’t care as much about “looking old” while “revisiting” the past, i’m not so worried about “being current”, etc – i watch what i want, and i do that, generally speaking, because i like it
i try not to post a lot of the “really fucked up” shit that I’ve ended up seeing over the years, or at least keep it contained to my youtube accounts but every once in a while, something “slips through”
also, i’d recommend not watching those if you feel like you’re easily “disturbed” and you have a “weak stomach” lol